Confusious Soul...

Was Confucious as confused as his name seems to be? Am i the only one who cannot figure out ways to get out of hundreds of dilemmas that I find myself falling into all the time. The subjectiveness of situations drive me crazy. Why can't we have standards made for every thing (I know I am growing insane)!

Guilt is one of the resultants of my various actions in varying situations. It comes into existence when I feel I have contributed to harm someone. Even though my intentions were not wrong, the actions culminated into presenting a scary picture. I want to blame others for the sorry state of affairs as an escape route but I know this won't help me.

I want to take some burden off my soul by thinking that whatever happens happens for good and that destiny has its own role to play. However, the fact that I let it happen and that I could provide no alternative solution to the problem haunts me.

I curse myself for being so helpless, indecisive and closed-minded. But then I love myself so much that I tend to forgive myself, giving a warning that it should not happen again!

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The Devil's Own said…
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11:21 AM
Sunny Side Up said…
so confused and so guilt-full blog entry. Kya ho gaya beta? Sab thik to hai? Ye thode-thode din baad tujhe kya shock lagta hai? Chill Maar Yaar!
8:51 PM
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