The Moron Life

Having sex, food and sleep seem to be my 3 favourite activities in the order of priority these days. Can't (and don't even want to) find the reason for my existence. Career seems to be on auto-mode and basic minimum efforts go towards maintaining an average performance in office. Am I now without any dreams and dilemmas? Have I stopped sharing my feelings? Well, no. I am still the same in these respects. I am dying to find myself in this new world full of responsibilities which I am hardly able to do justice to. I have no clue what would make me happy. It is just a state of being. Does marriage do this to you? Well, can't blame it entirely.
Everybody seems to be at a distance. Can't find anybody close to reach to. I am left on my own to interpret the way of my life. Feel lonely but can't say don't enjoy being this way. Many new people have entered my life bringing new flavours to relish and remember. It is they who make this journey memorable. With this I am fine without any ambition. I am fine to just admire and support the people around me. I am fine to be there for the people who need me. I am fine to just appreciate what people have done for me. I am fine just to thank God for this life!

Comments

Shambhavi said…
bold post! Maami has come of age. :)

Dear Deepa... as they say, life is all about change. Everything changes.. this is the only truth about life..the only constant.

If we embrace change instead of fighting with it..we would have peace and calm around and about us. Within and without.
11:23 AM
Shambhavi said…
why so restless?
11:23 AM
Unknown said…
coincidentally, last year this day, my fb update was -

sometimes you live a whole life, without knowing who you are, until you see the world through the eyes of others - the vistor (2007)

its a new phase of life. keep exploring, searching for signs, trying to make sense..

n yes, as shambhavi said - its a bold post! i too had to read the first couple of words twice ;)
but then probably this is what maturity is-seeing things with the right mental filters.
10:38 AM
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