Thinking of V...

Thinking of you most of the time,
Dreams getting musical like wind chime,
Floating is my soul in peace,
Several unknown feelings yet to unleash.

What if I want to be with him all the time despite his memories accompanying me. I want more and more of him - his presence, touch, fragrance, warmth - want to hear him all the time. He is an escape route who makes me forget about the world around. For once he makes my life ideal, making me feel the need for nothing else, just content.

I wonder if it's a temporary phase I am going through. A path which may soon reach a dead end? But then I hate myself for thinking this way. Why can't I simply enjoy being in this state of euphoria without thinking about its longevity. Why can't I live for this moment? Why do I always need to worry about my future and security? I want to be as carefree as a firefly that lives for a night with the sparkle of a lifetime. I want to love him like crazy without expecting anything in return. I want to live aimlessly just embracing life for whatever it has to offer me. I want to be as random as possible even if I don't make any sense. Can I let myself lose to the extent of escaping from this pace of time?

I don't want to establish myself in anyway in this world. I don't know the reason for my existence for the society at large. I just have the need to love and be loved. This is the sole reason for people's actions. Everything they do is to make others love them. Isn't it?


Comments

Bharat said…
Welcome to the world of "phil"....people hopelessly in love......enjoy the feeling right now.....Viggi (as he was called in his Symbi days) has all the time in the world now to keep his better half entertained.....
7:29 AM
Unknown said…
something i told my sister once she got engaged.

the song pehla nasha from JJWS quite aptly depicts this phase of life ;)
all the slow motion, being lost in thoughts et al... :)
6:17 AM
Unknown said…
p.s. would suggest u not to refer him as V. VC / VCV could be better or the traditiona 'woh' could be

V reminds me of the movie v for vendetta ;)

anyone seconding me on that one, or is it that i have grown to filmy
6:20 AM
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