khalidimag

Thinking of you most of the time, Dreams getting musical like wind chime, Floating is my soul in peace, Several unknown feelings yet to unleash. What if I want to be with him all the time despite his memories accompanying me. I want more and more of him - his presence, touch, fragrance, warmth - want to hear him all the time. He is an escape route who makes me forget about the world around. For once he makes my life ideal, making me feel the need for nothing else, just content. I wonder if it's a temporary phase I am going through. A path which may soon reach a dead end? But then I hate myself for thinking this way. Why can't I simply enjoy being in this state of euphoria without thinking about its longevity. Why can't I live for this moment? Why do I always need to worry about my future and security? I want to be as carefree as a firefly that lives for a night with the sparkle of a lifetime. I want to love him like crazy without expecting anything in return. I want to live...

Now comes SM's turn. After paying a salute to her never dying spirit in life, (I shall never get tired of this!) let me get a little elaborative on her recent engagements - love counselor to some of her specific friends and Free-style dance, for which she has joined formal classes. As far as counseling goes, her understanding has evolved from one track focus on objective parameters of Tam Bram Mamas to letting oneself lose in love to find Mr. Right (the community issue though still remains). She has almost assumed the role of a psychologist who analyzes your behaviour pattern and helps in getting out the inherent reasons for the same (All my sympathies go to such poor souls who are subjected to this torture). She somehow manages to convince her victim on how right she is in her judgement. As SM's discipline has always remained unquestionable, she is quite religious in attending her dance classes twice a week. Apart from being a stress-buster, it helps her being in shape (now yo...

I know it's been really long. Feels quite good to get back to peek into our Maamis' lives! Well, finally all your good wishes worked for DM. Her childhood dream of getting married to a Tam Bram Mama (the name is VCV) is now going to be realized, much to her relief (and surprise). She got engaged on 7th of Nov'10 in Coimbatore, at her would-be inlaws' place. The function was a close get-together of only a few relatives, who were quite enthu to participate in the rituals and guide both set of parents. Leading them all was the Vadiyaar (priest), who was conducting it all. He was enjoying his position as a chief commanding a tribe! Tribe members simply chose to follow (the easier way out, for sure). He also prepared some documents (not legally binding of course) on behalf of both the sides entering into an agreement sort of a thing for the proposed marriage, on 21st of Mar'11. They were read out aloud, as an announcement so that any objections to the forthcoming marriag...

This is dedicated to Anna and Kasthuri for completing >one month of marriage. Long way to go guys! Well, this was another trip being long awaited by the Maamis for the reasons as listed below: Catching up with IMT junta Golden opportunity to come across any potential Mama material Kalyaana Saapaadu (Wedding food in literal sense, to be interpreted as the special typical menu in an Iyangar wedding) An escape route from monotonous work routine Rebonding of Maamis over one of their favourite social rituals - marriage, that too a Tam Bram one! So, while SM showed off her busy work life by attending virtual meetings on airport (mobile phone and laptop being put to full use), DM enjoyed catching up with Surya over a long Costa coffee session to begin the day(the quantity of 1 regular cup was easily more than sufficient for 3 people). SM righteously followed the typical Tam tradition of journeys. She had brought Idlis soaked in Oil mixed with gun powder. Simply yum! Once we boarded the fli...

Pressed the Restart button in this Game called Love. All ready to tread the known yet unknown path to discover myself all over again. Seems really weird to see yourself in this helpless yet powerful state. Uncertainty crushing you one side, while excitement filling you the other end. Someone caresses your desires and ignites your imagination. Apprehension mixed well with attraction, poured into a concoction of love! Is it just the resultant of a chemical reaction in our body stimulated by brain? Highly unromantic, isn't it? Whatever it is...the sedation is unparalleled! Chal pade hain fir ussi raah pe Jahan se kabhi guzarna na tha, Shayad jaante the ye barson se Ki aapke sajde mein ye sir jhukna hi tha.

The Maamis are struggling. Not in their careers (well there would always be something or the other to crib about regarding jobs!), not in their relationships (did you think romantic ones?; don't even think on those lines), not in their hobbies & interests (SM is busy clicking 'unique' pictures whereas DM is reading & writing as per her whims and fancies) but the challenge lies for them in groom hunt! Well, its official now. Both the Maamis have been formally launched in the Marriage Market, pitched as the perfect marriage material for all the Iyers (one of the sub-sects of the Tamil Brahmin community, the other being Iyengars). Without delaying further, lets address the issues that DM is facing straightaway (obviously from DM's perspective, conveniently ignoring the forlorn condition of the guys) for which it is essential to know the SOP (Standard Operating Procedure). After the first-cut review of the Guy's (potential Mama) profile on Tamil Matrimony (of th...

Well, it has been quite some time since we ignored our dear Maamis. To provide you a status update, DM is on a Mama (Groom) hunt whereas SM is exploring the world of photography. DM is always filled with deep appreciation (to the extent of joining her fan club) for SM whenever SM tries her hand at such interesting domains. Nowadays SM is kept on her toes looking for a picturesque scene that could be captured in her Nikon/Canon to be interpreted as abstract or real piece of art. Some of her masterpieces have been the stray dogs of her colony, random clouds, thirsty birds, and dirty kids! In a recent telephonic conversation between both the Maamis (after a time gap of more than 2 weeks), they touched upon the usual topic of fashion, brand consciousness and dressing sense of today's generation (they obviously considered themselves as aliens!). Both of them took pride in recognizing the fact that somehow they identify themselves with Kurtas and that 70% of their wardrobe is full of th...

They are scary. They haunt, they grow exponentially day by day. They never sleep within me. They are too many to handle and belong to different important individuals in my life. Friends and bosses have theirs too inflicted on me. They bother me quite a lot these days, these Expectations. I have always fought with them and further they too fight amongst themselves within me! For instance, my parents' expectations fight with mine of self. Sometimes they have been friendly and helpful in achieving something which has been beneficial for me as I realized with time, though I may not have wanted to indulge into it initially. And at other times they create internal conflicts which make it difficult for the brains to process decision making! In my latest project in hand - Groom Hunt - expectations play a key role. While I interact with the potential candidates, I wonder what do I expect of them. Do I tone down my expectations or do I show my cards clearly. I even don't know where they...

"Gone are the days of love, The times of innocent bliss. Chatting for hours on absurd topics, Being with each other despite distances. Wish to go back in time, To treasure what was mine!" One fine evening, the above thoughts came to DK Maami's head while she was on her way back home from office. Brooding over the past is her favourite time pass activity. Recently when SR Maami also shared some old stories with DK Maami at a luncheon meeting, both of them started wondering how far ahead have they traveled from their starting point in life. Those were the days of complete ignorance and simplicity. Maamis were away from the crudeness and rudeness of people, to the extent that SM Maami had to look for the meaning of "Asshole" in dictionary after having taken some days to understand the pronunciation of the word. They didn't bother about their appearance or style quotient. All that was important was performing well in academics that could help them to fulfill the...

Do you feel like running away from all your near and dear ones? enjoying your own company? sitting idle and staring at the surroundings and the sky? losing yourself in thoughts? ignoring all the acquaintances? They may be symptoms of Depression but they can also hint towards your inability to adjust to/digest something which you are being put through. In other words, internal conflict is leading to anxiety. Mental masturbation, though may seem unnecessary, becomes a necessity sometimes to release the building up stress. This may also be the result of getting prone to the monotonous daily routine. This is when we really feel like doing something meaningful for self/others. In other words we stop deriving any meaning in what we are currently pursuing. In such circumstances, talking to the inner self becomes really important to see what we really want to do with our lives. Where am I headed to? What do i want to achieve in life? What really makes me happy? - Food for thought indeed!

Maamis met again and yet again history was created. PVR Naraina was honoured to receive the Maamis on a Saturday afternoon who wanted to satiate their appetite for Tamil movies. It was planned well in advance. Tickets were booked online by DM (Dilli Maami) as per the orders of BM (erstwhile Bengaluru Maami) who usually acts as the enthusiastic initiator of all such outings and meet-ups. However, despite all advance planning activities, how could the Maamis remain away from their old accomplice - CHAOS. DM got stuck in a traffic jam near her place. In the meantime DM realized that only half an hour was left for the movie to start. Being aware of the consequences, she immediately informed BM of the situation and suggested to sell off her ticket if possible (money does matter!). BM consoled DM and goaded her to come as soon as possible. She couldn't let her planning go in vain! So, DM boosted her spirits, instructed the Auto-wallah to take her to Naraina ASAP in whatever way possible ...

Aalam kuch aisa hai is dil ka Majaal hai jaaye ye behal, Baithe hain bas issi intezaar mein Kabhi wo bhi to karen pehel. Haaledil jo bayaan karte hain Maano gehraiyon mein dabe raaz kholte hain, Jaan nikal rahi hai idhar reh rehke Aur wo baat hansi mein taal dete hain. Neend nahi aati to khud se baat karte hain Jaante hain khairiyat nahi par kissi tarah samjha lete hain, Maaloom hai jahan mukammal na mil paayega Nadaan dil magar chaah karta hi jaayega. Hamen khayalon mein to unhe apna kehne do Dil ke armaanon ko khulke bikharne do, Jaane kab qayaamat se mulaqaat ho jaaye Ek aakhri salaam hi kehne do.

Just wrote this article for Mom's school magazine: Hello! My name is Ravi. I am 8 years old and I study in class 3. I love dancing. When I grow up, I want to become a dancer. I have won the best dancer award twice in my school’s Annual Day function. Yesterday only I requested my father for his permission to join regular dance classes near our home. He told me joining regular classes this year won’t be a good idea as it would affect my studies. He thought it was important for me to retain my First position in class which could entitle me to get scholarship next year. Although he suggested that I join the dance classes during vacation time. I thought next year if I get scholarship, may be father would let me join the classes. I am in class 6. Studies are getting tougher. There are unit tests, mid-term exams, and end term exams to attend which doesn’t leave me with much time to watch TV, play cricket with my friends, participate in extra-curricular activities or pursue my hobby which ...

It is only sometimes and for somethings that you question your soul. Today was one such occasion. I wanted to know what came first for me - family or public interest. The choice may seem easy to most of us, which is family. If we take our thinking a little more deeper, we would realize it would not be easy for many of us to live with the guilt of having killed others for selfish reasons. Though we take a call in that crucial moment of desperation, a second thought connects us with our soul that suggests what God wants us to do. This thought process started after watching the movie 'Aamir', which has Rajiv Khandelwal as the lead actor. The way the story is told is brilliant and to top it, Rajiv is amazing in his role. It is a dark movie which shows us how life of a London-returned Muslim doctor drastically changes when he visits his family in India and how he ends up being labelled as a terrorist despite his sacrificing his own as well as his family's life to save hundreds o...

Khwahishen kuch aisi jagin hain in dinon, chaino karaar kho gum hain hum to. Jang chidi hai dil aur dimag ke beech Ab kitni baar laayen khud ko ishq ke changul se kheench... I am shocked to see myself in this state. I shudder, a strange excitement and nervousness filling me, while I write this post. This is possible only when you are in love. Romance is something which has to be felt to be understood. You live in this fantasy world with your partner, away from all materialism and worldly affairs. Lost in your thoughts, every mundane task gains charm. Time flies in imagining him all around you and the day seems to be musical. You long to be with him all the time and everything else appears distant. All you want is togetherness, care and extra attention. I lack diction to express this emotion!